i've realised that if i was a really good writer, my life could make a great novel.

it takes millions of people to complete the world, but it only takes you to complete mine.

I have this problem, i can't say what im feeling. WHEN I AM FEELING SO MUCH, this leads to me not being able to type what im feeling. and i really want to type what im feeling. I love you blog. because i can just type anything to you and it doesnt even matter.
Ok so here goes..
I can't help feeling angry tonight, i shouldn't its stupid. I just wanted a quiet night, then secretley i didn't? but i got what i wanted in the first place and now im disappointed.
this is to everyone who ever reads this piece of junk.
DO NOT SEARCH FOR THE PERFECT.
you're never going to find it.
you'll hope its there and prayer that you might be the lucky one who gets it.
but you wont, no one will.
So maybe you should destroy the list you made of the ideal person, this i promise will prevent further damage, trust me.

Oh Tuesday,

Well i have an idea for my art assessment, and i'm going with it. A giant chatterbox! Ok, so it does sounds silly, but the end results will pay of im hoping.
For now i'm assessment free and it feels great.

WAIT, WHO SAID HOLIDAYS - oh me ^_^
THE LIST
♦Walk the beaches of port macquarie with ze family and boyfriend
♦Get new clothes, prefferably op shopped ones
♦Visit the grandmother in syd
♦Go to manly
♦smile lots and lots
♦drive lots and lots
♦deffo winter clothes
♦be happyyyyyyyy :D

monday

So, recently, i've been stressed and more stressed and more stressed and i've finnally made myself sick. Staying up till all hours finishing assessments due the next day and having all nighter weekends has certainly had its toll on me.
At this wonderful moment i should be doing yet another assessment (oh the joys of yr 11) but seem to be distracted by either this, facebook or youtube and it is a majour SUCK.

georgina

Too much to eplain and so little time for all the words, but in the end, it was right.

This blog is for my Georgina alice,
i hope you get the chance to read.
today i'm not feeling so well, not sick, but a sick feeling, but everythings okay, please don't worry. i wish i could sit with you for hours and talk, because i can't really do that with anyone else. talking's good. and you and i were good at talking, don't stop talking though, the phone isn't the same, even though i wish i could just run to the phone a dial your number, i can't not now, but i will soon, i will write also, i know your there, always. but i think i did something terrible. but it was going to be terrible anyway. so either way terrible was in the picture. i feel like this massive loser but i feel like a winner at the same time, how can that happen!!! it can't. are you up for a 'library' trip anytime soon? ha, i miss everything and i couldnt do anything, i feel like i've not only let myself down but everyone around me! but i feel like it's all ok at the same time and happiness is only what they want me to have, how can that be! is there some reason some people just don't get to be happy, i miss you. i'll talk soon, sending probably all of my love your way, i know you need it to, because it's not easy. but you can't give up.
<3

rest your weary heads, all is well

so dreammmmmm onnnnnnnn.
i dont know what to type, yet i want to type so many things, so many things rushing around in my head.
Don't you just wish for one person, to understand you! to be able to sit down with someone, spill your guts with all these things, everything, letting them in on everything you ever were, and not regret it the next day, to be able to be so close to someone that they'll even know whats going on without having to even ask, just to be there, for support, all kinds of support, especially emotionaly. to share a connection with some one person and just that one person.
because i do, i really do.
i think alot of stuff, crappy stuff, would make sense then.
but im waiting.

on another hand, i bought gossip girl today, almost finished the first season and it hasnt even been a day, i wont have time for it later on, so im getting all i can take in.
also went to roselands by myself, shared a donut king coffee with myself and surfed fb on my phone, by myself :(
things will change
love forever. wont be blogging anytime soon,
Xo

time changes everything but nothing is changing

is so pissed off! wrote the longest blog only to realise connection wasnt stable, thanx next doors un secured wireless connection.
thanx alot!! >:\

sorry for the unfailthfullness blogging,
all has been a very mixed track of songs,
if only our life was built by soundtracks.
forgive me for i can't bare to think and re-write my previous unsuccessfull blog writting, -.-

time is making this happen so much faster than i imagined, what will become in the end? ask me in a few months, im bound to know the answer then, as for now.
the writting letters as i talked about in my previous POSTED BLOG was also unsuccesful, sorry to disappoint. ive decided to not leave any of myself behind, im taking it all with me, where ever i go. not missing a single thing and deffinatley not regretting another.

over all feeling today was quite crap actually! but nothing a sitting at the bottom of a nice warm shower, sleep, and blog couldnt fix,
sending much love to you all, and some of this humidity.
because im sooooo sick of it. Gahh!
<3